Wish i could put on a happy face and say it's ok, but i don't feel that way. Really i'm sad i won't see them anymore. I'm sad it's come to this. I'm sad the church has become a place they want to "leave". I'm sad this has happened, to me, so many times. Not me personally, this i know.
I want to stay friends, but i feel this elephant in the room when we are together. Difficult to describe.
Jesus is what my family is about. Church is where we are fed. I'm sad when that becomes a place of hurt feelings for some. Where i worship has become a place of bad feelings for others. Why is this?
Wish things like this didn't happen. Wish hurt was never involved where Jesus is praised. I know this is an impossible wish.
So today my heart is heavy.
And today
I pray a peace for those, as they go forward, that they stay connected to the fellowship of the church. That hurt does not reign in their heart or carry forward. I Pray for what Jesus can only do, which is restore the broken in him/her, and me.
My heart is heavy
My feelings are in my throat
Tears are on my cheeks
Ministry can be lonely with few to talk to.
Thank you Jesus you are a constant truth in my life.
Kathy...I know we don't know each other real well or anything. But I am also a PW & I have went thru this many times in our 18 years of ministry. It's hard...it hurts & really...it stinks.
ReplyDeleteLast year my BFF left the church. We were like sisters...did everything together...went on vacations...I loved her kids & family. One day she totally shut me & the church out of her life. I was so depressed & sad for so long. I could not change how she felt & I had to give it to God. That's when God lead me to Leading & Loving it & all the amazing ladies there. I have become such great friends with so many PWs out there. Not sure if you are in one of the PW groups on L & L it...but if you aren't I would totally encourage you to do so.
People leaving the church will continue to happen no matter how we wish they wouldn't...it hurts me deeply & I often take it personally. But know there are others in that boat with you & we would love to encourage you...lift you in prayer & love on ya!!
Steph Thomason
Thanks Steph! I've tried to join a group, but with our schedule it's so difficult to find the time! Thanks for keeping track of me! :) I keep up on the L&LI blog and will join a group when i can! Between having the kids home, preschool, and my job as a nurse, hard to find time. But i'm really craving some honest, heart friends who know where i'm at. So maybe i should make it a priority!
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