Sometimes it's hard

Sometimes it's hard to be a pastors wife

hard to sit in the front row alone while your husband is talking about you in his sermon

hard to have a full 2 empty rows behind you while everywhere else is full

you kninda feel like people think you are "unreachable" when all you want is a toosh to fill the seat next to you or around you at least.

sometimes it's just difficult!

I thought Jason did a great job preaching yesterday. I know i didn't have to sit in the front row alone, but if i wasn't sitting next to him, he would have been alone. And my heart couldn't let him be alone before and after he preached. Who would calm his nerves, listen to his little jokes he whispers, and tell him he did a great job when he was done?

That's why, even though i leave church and feel that it's difficult to sit alone with no one next to me, i continue to do it. My husband has said i could go sit somewhere else. But i know i would feel bad that i wasn't there to be the first person to tell him he did a good job.

I don't sit in the front to be noticed

I just want to be by my husband and support him

somedays it's easier than others.